"Here you go, sir. One number two combo supersized and cheeseburger kid's meal," the small Hispanic woman behind the counter said as she pushed the tray with our food toward me.
"Thanks," I said smiling at her and picked up the tray. I turned to my son Andrew, who had been pulling napkins out of a dispenser and now had a pile that he stuffed into his pocket. "Where do you want to sit?"
"Over there," he said pointing to an empty table just outside of the children's play area.
"Okay. Wanna grab my drink. Diet coke." I said and handed him both of our cups.
"Okay Dad,"
We sat there eating in silence. I kept looking at my son and thinking about what Mr. Kristof said. Did Andrew look at me as a disappointment? I knew I hadn't been the best dad. I wasn't there for him every day and that thought made my stomach turn on a hourly basis. Doubt had eaten at me from the moment that I had signed the divorce papers. Could I have tried harder? What if I'd been more open and a better communicator? What if I had spent less time at work and more time with Andrew and Sharon?
I watched Andrew take a bit of his cheeseburger. What would Andrew and Sharon think about what'd happened at the 7-11. Was Sharon watching the news right now? What if she knew it was me who'd saved that clerk. Would it change things? Would it change things for Andrew?
"So how is school?" I asked as I took a bite of my burger.
"It's okay."
"Are you doing your homework?"
"Yeah. Mom makes sure I get it done," Andrew said and then took a sip of his drink.
I yawned. I hadn't really gotten much sleep after I had woken up from the nightmare. It also hadn't helped that my stomach had been in knots since I emptied everything in my stomach into the toilet. Probably shouldn't be eating McDonald's, I thought and then put down my cheeseburger.
I didn't remember much about the nightmare. I just knew that when I'd woken up, I was terrified. I could remember something about an old woman but everything else eluded me. Could the dream have anything to do with Kristof. My instincts told me that it had but I didn't think there was much I could do with the fragmented pieces of the dream that still rattled around in my head. Maybe more of it would come back to me.
What I needed to do was figure out what I was going to do if I got into another situation like 7-11. Kristof had said that more was coming. I couldn't let people know who I was. If I did it would just become too complicated. What happens if the cops get a hold of me? Did that mean Kristof would come and get me… kill me because someone knew about the whole thing? Or maybe he would just leave me there …
I just can't get caught, I thought to myself. I looked down at the bag Andrew's burger and fries had come in. The bag was covered with cartoon super hero characters.
No costumes. I won't wear tights. I just needed something to cover my face, and maybe some different clothes.
I looked up and could see Andrew looking at me, waiting for me to say something else to him.
"Sorry was just thinking about something… Are you going to play soccer this summer?"I asked.
"Nah. I don't like soccer. I want to play football but Mom won't let me," he said.
"How come?"
"She thinks I'm going to get hurt," he said shaking his head and then taking another drink of his soda.
"I'll talk to her. If you want to play football then I think you should give it a try."
"She said that she wasn't going to change her mind."
"We'll see. How's your burger?"
"Good," he said and took another bite.
"So what do you want to do today?" I asked.
"I want to go see a movie," he said looking up at me.
"I knew you would say that. Two tickets to the new Transformers," I said as pulled the tickets from my coat pocket.
"Cool," he said smiling.
It was right then that I noticed the man sitting a few tables down from us. He was staring at me and when he noticed that I was looking at him he smiled at me. He was a big guy, over six feet tall and well over three hundred pounds, but he wasn't fat – just damn big. He had dark black hair and his skin was unusually pale. Something about him sent chills down my spin.
"I'll be right back," I said to Andrew and then stood up and walked to where the man was sitting.
I sat down across from him and said, "Look. I'm here with my kid and I don't want any trouble. Leave me alone right now and we can deal with this later."
"Uh, I don't know what you're talking about," the man said and then took a long drink of his coffee.
"Right. Then why were you looking at me that way? Why did you smile at me?"
"Dude, is it against the law to smile at someone. Just trying to be friendly."
I sat there for a moment. This was just some guy having lunch and now I've probably freaked him out. I'm lucky he hasn't called the manager or the cops. I'm starting to find bogey men in every corner, I thought and then stood up from the table.
"Oh … okay. Sorry." I said and quickly retreated back to the table where my son was watching me.
"Did you know that guy, Dad?" Andrew asked.
"I thought I did—but… You ready to go?" I said as I looked back to where the guy was gathering his food wrappers and standing up
"I've got to throw this stuff away. You want me to get yours?" my son said as he picked up his tray.
"Yeah, thanks buddy." I said and handed him my trash. Andrew walked to the garbage bin and began to empty the tray.
The man who had smiled at me walked toward me and then paused at my table.
Leaning down slightly, he said, "Have a good day with your son, Marcus."
"I will –" and then I stopped and my heart skipped a beat. "Bogey man" repeated over and over in my head. He was a bogey man and I need to get my son out of here as quick as possible. I stood up and pushed my way past the smiling man and made my way toward my son. Got to get him out of here.
"What's up Dad?"
"Just time to go," I said as I watched the smiling man. He never took his eyes off me and my son as we made our way out of the McDonalds.